Would you say I'm an Angel?

繼續在一條可能沒有答案的問題上打問號，有沒有意思？
我不曉得……I've lost.

這幾個月，我不停的打破自己說過的話，不停的在自打嘴巴。
算罷，總算是了解到自己也不是什麼可靠的人……

I don't want to make it like, I'm hoping it.
不過有些事，我就是怎麼想都覺得不妥。
It shouldn't be like that.
那些時候我一直都在堅持放棄間拖拖拉拉……
Somehow I sensed something so I didn't even think of letting it go...

(唉)
然後腦裡一句：都過去了，你還想怎麼樣？

好問題。都過去了，還想怎麼樣？
挽救？又沒有時光機。
別玩了。

But I just cannot let go.
It comes and disrupts my thoughts every minute, reminding me some happy days that cannot ever return.

And precious memories are still precious, though painful and they have turned into torment.

Can I cut them off?

……連七情六慾都拔掉吧。

Those laughters, those smiles and gentle words, how I can't stand giving them to anyone. How I miss them and will pay for anything to just have them for one second. I don't want to share those with someone else whose name that I don't even know. How desperate was I to give a hug when I knew he had received such a stunning news. How longing, have I been wanting to share those delicious restaurants and excellent movies, with this who don't usually seek for. How I, how I miss those days when we're using the same pen in the lessons, but now I just have no one to share these memories with. I just can let out a faint smile, alone myself, with tears following.

How, tell me, how can I quit...